My feelings toward John were very mixed over the next few days. On the one hand I felt enormous sympathy for him: he’d been through a horrific ordeal and he, more than anyone, had suffered the most from the pressured of twenty-four-hour attention. Being at the center of the circus was something that was starting to eat away at all of us, and it would eventually affect every one of us in a different way. For now, John was the one who was suffering the most. But besides feeling sympathy, though, I was angry with him, too, and there were moments when I didn’t feel sorry for him at all. It was the second or third time that something like this had happened to him, and I was beginning to lose patience. There were plenty of times when I had felt like punching out management but I’d held back, so I reasoned that John should have done more to avoid getting into bad scrapes
“You don’t fucking do things like that at our age”, I cursed to myself.
Officially, the injury to John’s foot was due to an accident. All he said afterward was that he was drunk and dancing around his room when he accidently stepped on the vodka bottle. In my view, drugs had been an aggravating factor- and it says a lot that the thing we turned to to get us out of the mayhem had been more cocaine. Sadly, the incident wasn’t the only time blood was spilled. There was more to come at our end-of-tour party. A lot more.
We had two or three more shows to do, and I was counting the days before I could go back to the UK […]. The madness of being on the road seemed never-ending, and despite the fact that the tour had started with such a high due to all the adulation we received, our moods started to dip. A rock-and-roll lifestyle had no structure. When you are young you don’t look back, but later on you realize it’s a series of highs and lows. You can get high on creativity as well as drugs, but what goes up must come down and it can drain your energy. ‘The Reflex’ was about to go to number one, but in addition to the incident with John, there was more trouble ahead- and it would further take the shine off the things.

..my soul mate, and part of being in a successful relationship is that there is one person whom you can talk to about everything. Someone who will see things from a unique perspective and who will consider you a little bit more that other people.

If we have faith in each other,  then we can be strong

When you try your best, but you don't succeed; when you get what you want, but not what you need; when you feel so tired, but you can't sleep. Stuck in reverse. And the tears come streaming down your face when you lose something you can't replace, when you love someone, but it goes to waste.. could it be worse? And high up above or down below, when you're too in love to let it go -but if you never try you'll never know just what you're worth- tears stream down your face when you lose something you cannot replace. Tears stream down your face- I promise you I will learn from my mistakes. Lights will guide you home and ignite your bones and I will try to fix you

Try to see it my way, do I have to keep on talking till I can't go on? While you see it your way, run the risk of knowing that our love may soon be gone. We can work it out, we can work it out. Think of what you're saying, you can get it wrong and still you think that it's all right. Think of what I'm saying, we can work it out and get it straight, or say good night. We can work it out. we can work it out. Life is very short, and there's no time for fussing and fighting, my friend. I have always thought that it's a crime, so I will ask you once again- try to see it my way, only time will tell if I am right or I am wrong. While you see it your way, there's a chance that we might fall apart before too long. We can work it out,
we can work it out