I'm feeling things. I've been feeling confused since weeks ago, months ago. I AM confused more than ever. What if that happens? I'm not scared, I'm just wondering about what could happen when.. Actually, I don't care. I need that. I can't live without it, so everything that comes with that is going to be okay. Sometimes I think I would like it. I don't know how to name it, I don't know if this has a name. Ordinary people would call it as ordinary people always call it. Vulgar name. I don't like that. I don't even think is really THAT. Maybe the feeling is stronger now because of the things I've been "doing" lately. Maybe because I can't confirm it. I can't taste it. I don't know how it feels. I would like to know it, though. I'm literally dying to know how it would be. I need that right now, I can't wait anymore. Yet I don't have other option.