We went through the process of John coming offstage to take more drugs three or four times until we finally got the filming done.
Unbelievable.
Looking back, it was all so surreal. When I replay it in my mind it's like watching the sort of mayhem you'd expect to find in a Quentin Tarantino movie. John would later be quoted as saying that he felt as if his body has left him and his soul was pinned to the ceiling- and that's exactly how he looked: as if his soul had left him. Anybody looking down on us from the ceiling of that hotel room the night before would have witnessed a morbid sight, with the stark red of all the blood against the white sheets and me panicking as I cradled him.
We got through the video shoot, but I think maybe we both lost a bit of our souls that night.